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I was the last person in the club to find out about my husband's affair. A woman named Serena Voss crossing the room with the precision of someone executing a plan. "So you must be Jade." Those were her first words to me. Perfectly calibrated. Not warm. Not threatening. "I thought you and Blade were done with all that." Dani said. I asked Dani to repeat herself. The color left her face. The women around me went quiet—not gasping quiet. The worse kind. The quiet of people who already knew. Everyone in the clubhouse already knew his affair... except me... I set down my drink. Carefully. Deliberately. I did not scream. I walked outside. Three in the morning. He came home. "Was there something between you and Serena Voss?" "One night," he said. "Back in March. At the clubhouse." He said he thought it was something he could contain. That telling me would hurt me for something he was certain would never happen again. "So you decided what I needed to know." "Yes." That one word. Without defense. Without cushion. Four months he looked at me every day and decided I did not need to know. _____________ Three weeks after I left, I learned to make my coffee a different way. Blade always made it strong, almost too strong, dark enough that the mug looked like it was holding something heavier than liquid. I used to complain about it every morning while I drank every drop. In my new apartment downtown, with my secondhand coffee maker and my one-person French press, I started making it thin and pale and exactly the way I wanted it. The first morning I sat by the window with that pale, quiet cup in my hands, I cried for twenty minutes. Not because I missed the coffee. Because I realized how long it had been since anything in my daily life had been calibrated purely to me. The apartment is on the fourth floor of a building on Virginia Street, three blocks from the Truckee River. I can hear the city from my window at night. Reno does not go fully quiet. There is always something moving out there, some engine or some neon or some person walking home from a casino shift at two in the morning, and in those first weeks I found that comforting in a way I did not expect. The noise was proof that the world was still running without me in it. That everything had not stopped just because mine had. I chose this apartment because it was nothing like the River House. No back porch, no yard, no Truckee view. One bedroom, clean white walls, south-facing light in the afternoons. Remy helped me move in with two carloads of the things I had taken from my half of the life Blade and I built together, and when we finished and the boxes were stacked against the wall and the furniture was shoved into rough arrangements, she made us both tea and we sat on the floor because there was nowhere to sit yet and she said, this is yours now. Not in a sad way. In a factual way. Like she was reminding me of something I needed to hear in simple language. I have not spoken to Blade in three weeks. He has called eleven times. I know the exact number because I have looked at his name on my screen eleven times and put the phone face-down eleven times and then sat very still waiting for the feeling to pass. It always passes. I do not know what that means. Whether I am getting stronger or just more practiced at performing strength to myself, which is a distinction Remy would appreciate and would promptly turn into an entire conversation I am not ready to have. What happened at the Steel Wolves gathering is something I have replayed in my head so many times that it no longer plays in sequence. It comes to me in fragments now. The smell of the clubhouse: motor oil and whiskey and the particular warm-bodies heat of too many people packed into a converted warehouse. The sound of Serena's voice, which I had never heard before that night, rising above the music with a specific kind of clarity that told me she had planned her volume carefully. The way the women around me went quiet. Not gasping quiet. The worse kind: the quiet of people who already knew. I did not scream. I want to be clear about that, not because screaming would have been wrong but because people seem to expect it and I need to tell the truth about who I am in my worst moments. I went very still. I set down my drink. I looked at Blade across the room and he was already looking at me, which told me something about the shape of his guilt that I have been unable to stop analyzing since. He knew what was happening. He had been waiting for it. Whether he had been waiting for it to happen or waiting to see if he could prevent it, I still do not know. What I know is that he did not move. And so I moved instead. I walked out of that clubhouse with my spine straight and my face arranged and I stood on the gravel outside in the Nevada summer heat and I called an Uber. I watched the bikes lined up in the lot. All that metal, all those engines, all those horses of power belonging to men who ran on a code of loyalty that apparently had enough flexibility in it to accommodate what Blade had done. I waited eight minutes for my driver. I got in. I looked out the back window as we pulled onto the street and the clubhouse shrunk behind me and the neon of Reno opened up ahead and I did not look at my phone for the entire ride home. We had been married two years. Together for three. I knew going into it what the Steel Wolves demanded. Long nights and longer silences. Danger calibrated in degrees. A hierarchy I was expected to understand without being fully invited into. I accepted all of it because Blade made me feel like the center of something, not of the club, he was always clear that the club came before everything, but the center of his attention in a way I had not experienced before. When Blade looked at you, you were fully seen. I had built my life around the warmth of that attention. I had not understood how completely until I felt it go cold. Here is what I know about myself now, sitting in my apartment three weeks into a life I am building from scratch: I am my mother's daughter in more ways than I have wanted to admit. My mother, who raised me in Sacramento after my father left when I was twelve, who never once talked about him directly, who arranged her life around his absence the way you arrange furniture around a wall you cannot remove. I grew up understanding on a cellular level that love was a temporary condition, that permanence was a story people told to feel better about the odds. And then Blade walked into my life and seemed permanent. And I let myself believe it. And here I am. The river is three blocks away. I have started running again in the mornings, before the heat builds, while the city is still in its early-gray quiet. I run along the Truckee and watch the water and think about the River House, which I have not been back to since I packed my things. I wonder if Blade has changed anything. I wonder if the back porch still has the wind chime I hung the second summer we were there, the one he made fun of for six months before I caught him standing in the doorway listening to it one afternoon when he thought I was in the kitchen. I wonder if he took it down. I wonder why I am wondering. There is a version of this story where I am simply a woman who was betrayed and is now healing and will eventually be fine. I think that version is true. I also think it is not the whole story. The whole story involves who I was before Blade, and what I was looking for when I found him, and how much of what I built inside the Steel Wolves world was actually mine versus a costume I wore to belong somewhere solid. These are not comfortable questions. They are the questions I am starting to sit with at two in the morning when the city noise rises and falls outside my window and I am too honest with myself to pretend I am simply angry. My phone is on the table beside me as I write this. It has been quiet for four days. He stopped calling four days ago. I do not know if that means he has given up or decided to give me space or been told by someone with more sense than him that silence was the only thing left he could offer. What I know is that his name on my screen was easier to refuse than his absence. His absence has weight I was not prepared for. It sits in the apartment with me like a second piece of furniture I did not choose and cannot rearrange. I am not going to tell you how this ends. I am not sure I know yet. What I can tell you is that I am not the woman I was the morning of that gathering. I am not the woman who set down her drink and walked straight-spined through a room full of people who knew something she did not. I am something in process. Raw in places. Cleaner in others. Learning the taste of coffee I made for myself, which is paler than I used to like and slowly becoming exactly right. His name on my phone screen. Eleven times I have looked at it. Twelve, now. My thumb rests on the glass and does not move. Outside, Reno keeps its engines running. The river keeps moving three blocks away in the dark. I put the phone face-down on the table. I finish my coffee. I sit with the quiet and the city noise and the particular weight of a life that is entirely, uncomfortably, mine. I think about Remy calling this place mine. She said it without ceremony, the way she says most important things, and it landed the way important things land when they are delivered without preparation: directly, without the cushion of performance. She was right. It was mine. It is mine. The difference between those two tenses is the work I have been doing for three weeks in rooms no one else sees. The thing about leaving a life you chose is that the choosing does not evaporate because you have walked away from it. I chose Blade. I chose the Steel Wolves world and its rhythms and its particular costs and its particular belonging. I made those choices with my whole self, not naively, not because I did not understand what I was choosing. I understood. I chose anyway. And so leaving is not a simple matter of walking out a door. It is a renegotiation with your own history, with the version of yourself who stood in front of a mirror in a green dress and thought: tonight will be fine. There are things I miss that I am not ready to name out loud. The back porch of the River House. The particular sound of the Truckee when you can hear it from the bedroom on still nights. The way Blade's coffee was always wrong and always exactly what I wanted. Small things that accumulate into the shape of a life, and the shape of a life is what you miss when it changes, not the single large thing but all the small things that formed the architecture of the ordinary. Tonight I am not deciding anything. Tonight I am sitting with my pale coffee and the city noise and the particular weight of a life that has been stripped back to its foundation. The foundation is solid. I know that now in a way I did not know in the weeks immediately after the gathering, when the solid and the uncertain felt identical. The foundation is mine and it is solid. What I build from here is the question. And I am not ready to answer it tonight. Tonight I am just here, just present, just alive in the city I chose three years ago when I followed a man with green eyes and a habit of showing up. The Life I Signed For Six months before the gathering, on an ordinary Thursday in late February, I drove to the Forge with Blade's lunch in a paper bag on the passenger seat and a podcast about typography playing through the car speakers, and I thought: this is good. The thought was not dramatic. It did not arrive with strings attached or caveats or the kind of cautious qualification I had once applied to all my good feelings. It was simple and solid and I let it be what it was. This is good. My life is good. I am good. The Forge sat on the eastern edge of Reno in a converted auto shop that Blade and two of his brothers had built into something real over four years of careful work. The sign above the bay doors read THE FORGE: CUSTOM BUILDS AND REPAIR in hand-cut steel letters that Blade had welded himself. I had watched him make those letters on a Sunday afternoon the first summer we were together, his gloves leaving black marks on everything he touched, sparks landing and going dark in the afternoon light, and I had understood something about him in that hour that I was still turning over. I parked in the side lot and carried the bag through the main bay. Three bikes in various stages of work. Classic rock from a paint-stained speaker mounted near the ceiling. The smell of oil and metal and something always slightly burning, not dangerously, just the smell of work being done. Tank was under a lifted truck in the back, his boots visible from the ankles down, humming something I could not identify. Dax, one of the newer prospects, was cleaning parts at a workbench and nodded when I passed. Blade was in his office, which was really just a room at the back of the shop with a desk and a window that looked out over the lot. He was on the phone when I pushed the door open. He held up one finger without turning around. I set the bag on the corner of his desk and sat in the battered armchair across from it, the one that had been there since before me and would probably be there after everything. I listened to half of a conversation about a shipment that was running late. His voice on the phone was different from his voice with me: shorter, flatter, all the warmth compressed into pure function. When he hung up he turned around and looked at me for a moment before he spoke. That was one of the things about Blade that had never changed in three years: he looked at you before he said anything, as if he needed to confirm who you were to him before he chose his words. Most people talk and then remember to look. He always looked first. 'You didn't have to drive all the way over here,' he said. I told him I know. He pulled the bag toward him. I told him I was passing on my way to a client meeting anyway, which was mostly true. He looked at me again in the way that meant he knew it was mostly true and was choosing not to press it. We ate lunch together in his office with the door open to the shop noise. I told him about the client meeting: a downtown hotel that wanted a rebrand and had a budget that would have made my boss at Bright Line genuinely emotional. He listened the way he always listened, not performing attention but actually tracking, asking one or two questions at the end that told me he had followed the whole thing. Then he told me about the Reaper problem. He did not use the word problem. He used a word I had learned from the club: pressure. The Reapers were putting pressure on a supply route the Steel Wolves controlled. Ghost was handling it. There was going to be a response. I knew better than to ask what kind of response. That was one of the rules of being in this world without being inside it: you learned to hear the outline without pushing for the details, because the details were either dangerous to know or things Blade would not tell me anyway. I had made my peace with that limitation a long time ago, or I thought I had. 'How bad?' I asked. He said not bad yet. The yet was doing work in that sentence that I heard clearly and set aside. 'Ghost called a gathering for the end of June,' he added, reaching into the bag for a napkin. 'The whole charter. Old ladies included.' I said I would make sure my calendar was clear. On my way out I stopped in the main bay to say goodbye to Tank, who had emerged from under the truck and was wiping his hands on a rag that had clearly exceeded its useful life. Marcus Webb, called Tank since before I knew him, was forty-two inches across the shoulders and moved with the deliberate patience of a man who had learned not to rush anything he cared about. He had been Blade's VP for six years. He was the closest thing Blade had to a brother who was also a friend. He asked me how work was going. I told him about the hotel rebrand. He nodded with the focused interest of a man who had heard the phrase brand identity before and was doing his best with it. I liked Tank enormously. The drive back to Bright Line took me down the Virginia Street corridor, past the casinos that were already catching afternoon light on their signs even though it was not yet three o'clock. Reno in February had a particular quality of light: pale and low and honest about its limitations. No pretending to be warmer than it was. No Los Angeles flattery. Just the desert sky and the mountains at the edge of vision and the city doing its ordinary business. I liked Reno for that. It never pretended. The hotel meeting went well. My boss told me afterward that I had handled the client presentation with unusual confidence, which I took as a compliment even though it implied surprise. I was good at my work. I had been good at it quietly for three years, delivering projects that won the accounts and then watching Michael, my boss, present them to leadership with his name first on the slide. I had not pushed back on this arrangement because I told myself I was building experience, building a body of work, building toward something. I was building. That much was true. I just had not been honest yet about what I was building toward. That night at the River House, Blade cooked. He cooked the way he did everything physical: with complete attention and no performance. The kitchen smelled like garlic and whatever cut of meat he had picked up from the butcher two blocks from the Forge. I sat at the counter with a glass of wine and my laptop open and we occupied the same space with the comfortable parallel-ness of two people who had learned each other well enough not to need to perform togetherness. He asked about my day. I told him about the hotel client. He told me a little more about the Reaper situation, a little more than he had said at the office. That was how information moved in our marriage: in increments, each one small enough to feel like trust. After dinner we sat on the back porch in the February cold, both of us in jackets, the wind chime moving in the dark beside the door. The Truckee was audible from there if you listened for it: a low, patient sound, not rushing. Blade had his hand on my knee with the particular weight of a hand that knows where it belongs. I looked at the mountain ridge beyond the city lights and thought about the gathering in June and the Reapers and the yet in his voice when he said not bad yet, and I decided not to ask about it. He would tell me what he could. He always had. I trusted that. I trusted him. I want to tell you that I should have known. I want to build a narrative where the signs were there and I simply failed to read them. But that would not be honest. The honest version is that our life in February was genuinely good. The Reaper pressure was real but distant. Blade was present and warm and still the man who had driven three days straight to Sacramento when my grandmother died because I had mentioned once in passing that I was not sure I could handle the service alone. The man who remembered that I took my coffee strong because he paid attention to the kind of details other people let go. The man who made those steel letters above his Forge door and did not know I had watched him make them and understood something fundamental about his nature in the watching. The gathering was four months away. The summer was long. I had no idea what any of that time contained. I sat on the porch with my jacket against the February cold and Blade's hand on my knee and the wind chime counting out its small ordinary music, and I thought: this is good. I let myself believe it completely. That is not a failure. That was just Tuesday. The Steel Wolves had a code I had spent three years learning by observation rather than instruction. Nobody handed you a manual when you joined the world by way of loving one of the members. You learned by watching: which questions you asked and which ones you understood were not yours to ask. Which conversations you were present for and which ones you quietly vacated. Which parts of Blade's life were fully shared and which parts were managed in his direction and brought to you in the finished form rather than the working one. I had made peace with the limits of what I knew because the parts that were mine were genuinely mine and that had been enough. What I did not know then, what I had not thought to examine in the comfortable settling of year three of a marriage, was how the habit of accepting partial information had extended beyond the club into the ordinary life we shared. How I had developed a pattern of receiving what Blade offered without asking what he was not offering. Not because he was cruel or withholding in the small domestic ways. Because the club's logic of managed information had seeped into his personal life the way liquid seeps into a container: finding every available space, becoming the medium everything else moved through. Driving away from the Forge that February afternoon with his lunch on the passenger seat and my podcast and the warm certainty of a life I had built and believed in, I had no access to this analysis. I was just a woman who had married a complicated man and had organized herself around his particular kind of love and found it sufficient. I was just a woman on a Tuesday who brought her husband lunch because she was passing and because she liked seeing him in his element and because bringing lunch was a small act of the belonging she had spent years learning to trust. The gathering would be in four months. The Reaper situation was something Blade was handling. The evening ahead was the River House and dinner he would cook and the back porch and the sound of the Truckee and the wind chime doing its ordinary work. I drove toward the hotel meeting and I ran my presentation lines and I thought about the client's budget and I was happy in the simple, uncomplicated way of a person who does not know that the thing they are most afraid of is already in motion.

My biker Mac didn't just break his vows; he invited another woman into our bed. Tonight was the Vanguard Sovereigns' tenth anniversary. I stood in front of the vanity mirror, reaching for my wedding ring, when my fingers brushed against something cold. A delicate gold teardrop earring. I didn’t wear gold. And strangers didn’t belong in the President’s private quarters. Then Mac's "work" phone lit up. Unknown: The heat is getting closer. I miss the way you look in the dark. Don't be late tonight. I'm wearing the red dress you like. The words burned into my retinas. I shoved the earring into my pocket and took Mac’s hand downstairs. The game had begun. Soon I'll find out who she is. At the bottom of the stairs stood the "inner circle." And there, a woman leaning against the bar in a dress the color of fresh arterial blood, staring at my husband with the familiarity of a long-term lover. I felt the air leave the room. Everything makes sense. Item one: The Earring. Item two: The Red Dress. Item three: Mac's trembling hand. The audit of Mac Grier's soul had officially started. And I intended to make sure he ended the night in the red. —— The fog didn't just roll into the Iron Glade; it possessed it. It crawled over the jagged edges of the rusting shipyards and clung to the converted cannery that served as the Vanguard Sovereigns' clubhouse, smelling of salt, wet cedar, and the metallic tang of high-octane fuel. Inside the master suite, the air was thick with a different kind of heaviness—the suffocating weight of a decade of marriage. Sloane Mercer stood before the vanity mirror, her fingers trembling as she fastened a heavy silver necklace around her throat. Tonight was the Club's tenth anniversary—a decade since Cormac "Mac" Grier had taken the gavel and turned a ragtag group of riders into the most efficient logistics empire on the coast. It should have been a night of triumph. Instead, Sloane felt like she was preparing for an execution. She reached for her jewelry dish to find her wedding ring, but her fingers brushed against something that didn't belong. It was small. Gold. A delicate filigree earring shaped like a teardrop. Sloane froze. The reflection in the mirror seemed to shatter. She didn't wear gold; she found it soft, gaudy, and unreliable. She wore silver and platinum—metals that could withstand the heat of the forge, much like the life she had built alongside Mac. She picked up the trinket, the metal cold against her palm. Her heart, usually a steady, rhythmic machine that calculated ledgers and balanced the club's complex finances, skipped a beat, then began a frantic, jagged thrum against her ribs. It's just debris, her mind whispered, the analytical part of her brain trying to build a fortress against the encroaching tide of panic. A guest left it. A cleaner. But they didn't have guests in their private quarters. And their "cleaners" were the club prospects who wouldn't dare breathe on the President's bed, let alone leave jewelry in the crevices of the mattress. Her gaze shifted to the nightstand. Mac's "work" phone sat there, charging. He was in the shower, the roar of the water echoing through the heavy oak door, a sound that usually signaled the beginning of their intimate ritual before a big event. Sloane reached out. Her hand felt like it belonged to a stranger. Her skin was clammy, the fine hairs on her arms standing at attention. Every instinct honed by years of navigating the treacherous waters of outlaw politics screamed at her to stop. In this world, curiosity didn't just kill the cat; it got the cat's throat slit. She tapped the screen. It was locked. But a notification shimmered on the surface like oil on water. Unknown: The heat is getting closer. I miss the way you look in the dark. Don't be late tonight. I'm wearing the red dress you like. The words burned into her retinas. The red dress. Sloane looked down at her own attire—a sleek, floor-length charcoal gown that fit like armor. She felt a sudden, violent urge to rip it off. The shower stopped. The sudden silence was a physical blow, more deafening than the roar of the water. She dropped the phone, the clatter sounding like a gunshot in the quiet room. She shoved the gold earring into the deep pocket of her dress, her knuckles white as she balled her hand into a fist. The bathroom door creaked open, venting a cloud of steam that smelled of cedarwood and Mac's expensive, rugged soap. He stepped out, a towel slung low around his hips, his skin bronzed and mapped with the history of his violence. Scars from knife fights in Portland, a jagged line from a bullet graze on his shoulder, and the massive, intricate ink of the Sovereign eagle spanning his entire back. He looked like a god of the underworld. He looked like the man who had pulled her from the wreckage of her father's bankrupt estate and given her a throne. "Sloane," he rasped. His voice was a low-frequency vibration that usually settled in her belly like a warm shot of whiskey. Tonight, it felt like a serrated blade. He walked toward her, his footsteps heavy and deliberate on the hardwood. When he reached her, he didn't speak. He just placed his large, calloused hands on her shoulders. The heat of him radiated through the thin fabric of her dress. It was a possessive touch—one she had always mistaken for protection. "You're tense," he murmured, his breath ghosting over the shell of her ear. He leaned down, pressing his face into the crook of her neck, inhaling deeply. "You smell like roses and steel. I love that about you. The most dangerous woman in the Northwest, and you're mine." Mine. The word felt like a brand. Sloane forced her muscles to relax, a feat of pure, psychological gymnastics. She couldn't let him see the cracks. Not yet. She needed to know how deep the rot went. She needed to see the "red dress" for herself. "It's a big night, Mac," she said, her voice sounding hauntingly steady to her own ears. "Ten years. A lot of people would have bet against us making it this far." Mac's grip tightened almost imperceptibly. He turned her around to face him. His eyes were dark, like the depths of the Sound during a storm—impenetrable and cold. There was a flicker of something in them—guilt? Calculation? Or perhaps just the exhaustion of a man who was tired of playing a double game. "I'd burn this whole town to the ground before I let anyone take what's ours, Sloane. You know that." He leaned in, pecking her with a sudden, desperate intensity. It was a hard, hungry peck that tasted of mint and something darker, something like desperation. He tasted like a man trying to drown out his own conscience. Sloane didn't pull away. She leaned into it, her fingers digging into the damp skin of his arms, searching for the truth in the friction of their bodies. She felt the lie in the way his heart hammered against hers—not with the steady beat of a lover, but with the frantic rhythm of a hunted animal. "Go get dressed," she whispered against his lips, her eyes open, watching him. "The brothers are waiting for their King." "And the Queen?" he asked, his thumb tracing the line of her jaw. "The Queen is right where she needs to be," Sloane replied, her hand tightening around the gold earring in her pocket, the sharp post piercing the pad of her thumb. She welcomed the pain. It was the only thing that felt real. He retreated to the walk-in closet, and Sloane turned back to the mirror. She looked the same—perfectly coiffed, elegantly dangerous. But behind her eyes, the ledgers were shifting. She began to run the numbers, calculating the cost of a decade of loyalty against the price of a single gold teardrop. The "Bitter Betrayal" wasn't just a feeling; it was a debt. And in Sloane Mercer's world, every debt was collected in full. She grabbed her clutch, her movements fluid and predatory. As she walked toward the door, she caught a glimpse of her reflection one last time. She didn't see a grieving wife. She saw a woman who was about to dismantle an empire from the inside out. The fog outside pressed against the windows, a grey curtain rising on the first act of her husband's destruction. "Let's go, Mac," she called out, her voice echoing down the hallway, sharp and cold as a winter morning. "It's time to show them what the Vanguard Sovereigns are made of." As they descended the iron staircase toward the clubhouse floor, the roar of the party rose to meet them—the clinking of bottles, the heavy bass of rock music, and the boisterous laughter of men who lived outside the law. At the bottom of the stairs stood the "inner circle." And there, leaning against the bar in a dress the color of fresh arterial blood, was a woman Sloane didn't recognize. A woman with hair the color of midnight and eyes that landed on Mac with the familiarity of a long-term lover. Sloane felt the air leave the room. The sensory overload—the smell of smoking smoke, the heat of the bodies, the glare of the neon signs—sharpened into a single, agonizing point of focus. Ria. The name floated into her mind like a ghost. She remembered Mac mentioning a "specialist" hired to handle the logistics of the new Portland route. A mole. A strategic asset. Mac's hand settled on the small of Sloane's back, a gesture of public unity. But his fingers were trembling. The game had begun. And as Sloane looked at the woman in the red dress, she realized that the betrayal wasn't a mistake. It was a system. A systematic replacement of her life, her bed, and her club. She felt a strange, cold calm wash over her. The angst was still there, a roiling sea of fire in her gut, but above it sat the accountant. Item one: The Earring. Item two: The Red Dress. Item three: The King's trembling hand. The audit of Mac Grier's soul had officially started. And Sloane intended to make sure he ended the night in the red. The clubhouse floor was a cavern of sensory violence. The scent of stale beer and expensive bourbon fought with the ozone of a dying neon sign flickering above the bar. Shadows danced against the corrugated metal walls, cast by the shifting bodies of the Vanguard Sovereigns and their "Old Ladies." It was a sea of black leather and denim, a brotherhood forged in the grease of the shipyards and the blood of the Pacific Northwest. Mac's hand remained anchored to the small of Sloane's back. It was meant to be a tether, a claim of possession, but to Sloane, it felt like the weight of a heavy shackle. Every time his palm pressed into the silk of her dress, she felt the phantom sting of that gold earring in her pocket. She scanned the room with the clinical precision of a predator. Her mind was no longer the mind of a wife; it was the mind of a forensic auditor. She wasn't looking at faces; she was looking at discrepancies. "Stay close," Mac leaned in, his voice a low rumble beneath the pulsing bass of a heavy rock track. "The Skulls have been poking around the docks. I don't like the energy in here tonight." "Is that why you're shaking, Mac?" she asked, her voice a cool blade cutting through the humid air. He stiffened. His fingers flared, then tightened. "I'm not shaking. I'm wired. It's a big night." "Big enough to bleed for," she murmured, her eyes finally locking on the woman in the red dress. Ria wasn't just standing at the bar; she was occupying it. She held a glass of dark liquid—neat whiskey, most likely—with a practiced nonchalance that suggested she had sat on that stool a hundred times before. The red dress was a liquid shimmer of silk, daring and unapologetic, clinging to curves that Sloane suddenly found herself comparing to her own. It was a younger body, perhaps, or simply one less tired by the constant vigilance of keeping an empire afloat. But it was the way Ria looked at Mac that confirmed the audit's first finding. It wasn't the look of a contractor or a specialist. It was the look of a woman who knew the taste of the man standing at Sloane's side. "Who is she?" Sloane asked, her gaze never wavering.

I met my mistress Dawn after dark, two counties over, the way I always did. Away from my girlfriend Frankie. Away from anyone who knew my face. I told myself this was the last time. I had told myself that the last time too. After the intercourse, Dawn stretched and yawned. "You should get me some ink." I stopped. "What?" "Ink. A tattoo." She smiled up at me through the dark. "Your girl does the club's work, doesn't she? I heard she's the best in town." The smile widened, just a touch. "I'd love to be in her chair." I stood there with my shirt in my fist and I looked down at the woman in the bed. She knows whose chair that is. And she said it anyway. "No," I said, pulling the shirt on. "Stay away from Frankie. Stay away from the shop." Dawn watched me and smiled slowly. She didn't say yes and she didn't say no. "Whatever you want, babe," she said. ———————— The bell rang. Frankie did not look up right away. She was wiping down the chair, slow, the way she did every morning, the leather under her cloth worn soft by a hundred arms. "You open?" a woman asked. "For a consult, sure." Frankie straightened. "Walk-ins I do in the afternoon. You booked?" "Dawn." The woman stood in the doorway with the light behind her, so for a second Frankie could not see her clear, just the shape of her, easy and slim. "I called. Yesterday. About a back piece." "Right. Dawn." Frankie tossed the cloth over the bench. "Come on in. Shut the bell up behind you, it'll do that all day if you let it." Dawn came in and pulled the door to. The bell went quiet. She moved through the studio the way some folks do in a new place, slow, touching nothing, looking at everything. The flash on the walls. The framed pieces. The photos of healed work that Frankie kept by the window where the light was good. "You did all these?" Dawn asked. "Every one." "They're really good." Dawn stopped at a big back piece, a desert thing, all agave and storm light. "This is gorgeous. How long did this take?" "Four sittings. She was a trooper." Frankie pulled a stool over and sat, easy, settling into the part of the day she liked best, the talking part, the part before the needle where you found out who a person was and what they were really asking for. "So. Back piece. That's a commitment. You ever sat for anything big?" "Some," Dawn said. "Nothing that size." "It's a different animal. The small ones, you grit your teeth, it's done. A back piece, you've got to make friends with it. Hours. Sittings. You'll hate me by the third one." Frankie grinned. "Everybody hates me by the third one. Then they come back." Dawn laughed at that. It was a good laugh, low and real, and Frankie found herself liking the sound of it before she had decided to. That happened sometimes. You sat with a stranger and something in them clicked easy against something in you. "What are we thinking," Frankie said. She pulled a sketch pad onto her knee and uncapped a pencil. "Talk to me. What's the picture in your head?" "That's the thing." Dawn sat down across from her, on the other stool, and folded her hands. "I don't have a clear one. I just know I want something that means something. Not a butterfly. Not a quote. Something that says where I'm from." "Where are you from?" A small pause. So small Frankie nearly missed it. "Up north," Dawn said. "Little place. You wouldn't know it." "Try me. I've been everywhere there's a needle and a chair." "It's nothing," Dawn said, and smiled, and waved a hand, and the moment passed. "Just hill country. Scrub and rock. Hard place to grow up." "Most places are." Frankie started to sketch. Loose lines. Nothing committed yet, just the feel of a thing. "Hard country makes good ink, you know. The best pieces come out of hard places. People who had it easy want pretty. People who had it hard want true." She glanced up. "Which are you?" "True," Dawn said. No hesitation there. "Definitely true." "Good answer." Frankie kept sketching. "Then let's not do pretty. Let's do something with some teeth in it." They worked. That was the word for it, even at the consult stage, the back and forth of it, Frankie throwing shapes onto the page and Dawn leaning in to look and saying no, not that, or yes, more like that. It was good work. Dawn had an eye, it turned out. She knew what she did not want, which was half the battle. Frankie warmed to her the way she warmed to anyone who took the thing seriously. "You've got taste," Frankie said. "You'd be surprised how many people don't. They come in wanting whatever they saw on somebody else." "I don't want what other people have," Dawn said. Quiet. "I never have." "That'll get you good ink." Frankie tore the sheet off and started fresh. "Okay. I'm hearing roots. Something that holds on in bad ground. You said scrub country, rock. What grows up there. What's the plant that won't die no matter how hard the place is." "Ninebark," Dawn said. Frankie's pencil kept moving. The word meant nothing to her yet. Just a plant. Just a thing that grew up north in the rocks. "Ninebark," Frankie said. "Don't know it. Pretty?" "Tough," Dawn said. "Peels back in layers. Looks half dead and keeps living. They named it for the bark. Nine layers, supposedly. You can strip it and strip it and there's always more underneath." "That's beautiful," Frankie said, and meant it. "That's a back piece right there. A thing you can't strip down to nothing. I love it." She was already drawing it, the way she imagined it, branching, layered, climbing up over a shoulder blade. "We could run it up your spine. Let it kind of hold onto you. Like it's growing out of you instead of sitting on you." "Yes," Dawn breathed. She leaned in close to look. "Yes. Exactly that." For a moment the two of them sat with their heads almost together over the pad, and Frankie felt the easy good feeling of it, two women and a true thing taking shape on paper. Frankie did not know. That was the thing. Frankie sat there liking this woman, sketching her a plant that held on in hard ground, and she did not know a single thing about whose roads Dawn had ridden in on, or whose name was already sitting between them in the room, filling it up, taking all the air, while only one of them could feel it. "Okay," Frankie said. She set the pad down. "This is a real piece. I'm into it. Let me get the outline going so we've got something to build on. You good to start the linework today, or you want to think on it?" "Today," Dawn said. Quick. "I want to start today." "Eager." Frankie stood and snapped on a glove. "I like eager. Get your shirt situation sorted, I'll set up. We'll just do the top section, the part that runs up over the shoulder. Get the bones of it down." "Where do you want me?" "Face down on the table there. Pull your top up, drop the strap. I just need the upper back and that one shoulder today." Frankie turned to the bench and started laying out her things, the cups, the green soap, the machine, the small clean ritual of it that her hands knew better than her head. "You'll feel the outline more than the shading. People always think the shading's the bad part. It's the lines. The lines bite." "I can take it," Dawn said. "Everybody says that too." Frankie heard the rustle of Dawn settling onto the table behind her, the shift of fabric, the small sounds of a person getting bare for the needle. Frankie did not turn yet. She finished her setup, capped what needed capping, wiped the bench. When her hands were ready she pulled the work light over and turned around. And that was the moment the floor went out from under Frankie Cobb, though it would take her body another few seconds to know it. Because Dawn lay face down with her top pulled up and the strap dropped, the long clean canvas of her back bare to the light, and there, on the swell of her hip where it rose above the waist of her jeans, half healed and still a little angry at the edges, was a tattoo. Frankie's eye went to it the way a baker's eye goes to bread, the way a welder's eye goes to a seam. She could not not look at ink. It was the deepest habit she had. And so before her mind caught up, her trained eye had already read the thing on Dawn's hip, top to bottom, the way you read a signature. It was a mark. Not a flower. Not a quote. A mark, the kind a club puts on a person to say belongs to. Frankie had inked enough of them to know the shape of the intent. And it was good work, clean line, but it was the wash that stopped her cold. A green wash. Not black under color. A green laid into the shadows, soft, almost sick, the color of corrosion on copper, and Frankie knew that green. Frankie knew exactly one artist who mixed a wash like that and laid it like that, a man two counties north, in country Frankie had only heard named in the shop in a low voice. Ninebark country. Ninebark. The word she had been drawing all morning. The plant that held on in hard ground. Not a plant. A club. Frankie's hands did not move. That was the strange thing, the thing she would turn over later in the dark. Her hands stayed exactly where they were, the machine in the right, the green soap cloth in the left, steady as a level set true on a flat bench. The rest of her was falling down a well. But the hands stayed. "You're quiet," Dawn said into the table. Muffled. "That a good quiet or a bad quiet?" "Just reading the canvas," Frankie said. Her own voice came out level. She heard it come out level and a far-off part of her was almost impressed, the way you are impressed by a thing happening to somebody else. Reading the canvas. That was a true thing to say. She was reading it. She just had not gotten to the worst line yet. Because Frankie's eye, still moving, still doing the work her gut could not, slid up off the green mark and across the bare hip, and there, just above the healed ink, in the soft skin at the rise of the bone, was something drawn in pen. Ballpoint. Faded, half rubbed off, the kind of thing a person draws on another person idle, in the dark, not thinking, a hand moving while the mind is somewhere else. A spark. A small five line spark, coming off the head of a striker. Frankie knew that mark better than she knew her own face. She had watched that mark get drawn on a thousand things. On napkins. On the steam of a bathroom mirror. On the back of her own hand while she lay against a certain chest in the dark and a certain low voice told her things. Cormac drew that spark on everything. He did not even know he did it. His hand just did it, the way some men hum, the striker and the spark, over and over, his signature long before he ever signed a thing. It was on this woman's hip. In his hand. Frankie knew his hand. You cannot ink men for years and not know a man's own line when you see it. The studio went very quiet. Not the room. The room was the same, the bell over the door, the green soap smell, the far hum of the cooler in the back. It was the inside of Frankie that went quiet, a great white roaring quiet, like the second after a blast before the sound catches up. Her mouth tasted like metal. Like she had bitten down on a wire. She noticed that, distant, the way you notice weather. "You ready?" Frankie asked. "Ready," Dawn said. Frankie put the machine to the skin and started the outline. She inked a clean line while her whole life came apart behind her eyes, and not one drop of it showed in the work. That was the worst part. Her hands did not believe her yet. They laid the line true and even, the green soap, the wipe, the next line, steady, professional, beautiful, while behind her steady eyes Frankie watched her own house burn to the ground in total silence. The buzz of the machine went far away, like a bee in another yard. Her own breath sounded loud and wrong in her ears. And still the line came out clean. "You've got a light touch," Dawn said, easy, into the table. "I barely feel it." "Years of practice," Frankie said. She did not say the rest. The rest sat behind her teeth, hot and metal and huge. She did not say, whose spark is that on your hip. She did not say, who drew that on you in the dark. She did not say his name, would not give it to the air, would not let this woman hear how the name sounded coming out of Frankie's own mouth, broken. She inked the line. She wiped it. She inked the next one. Because here was the thing Frankie understood, even falling, even burning, even with the metal taste flooding her mouth. If she said one word now, she would have nothing. A scene. A screaming match with a half-inked stranger on her own table. And the woman would get up and pull her shirt down over that green mark and that pen spark and walk out into the morning, and Frankie would have a wound and no proof and no plan and a man who would look at her with his good liar's face and say, baby, what are you talking about. No. Not like that. Frankie Cobb was not going to fall apart on her own floor over a man. She finished the section. The whole upper run of the linework, the bones of the piece, the thing growing up out of Dawn's shoulder like it meant to hold on. It was, Frankie would think later, some of the cleanest work she had ever done, laid down by a woman whose whole life had just ended, and that was a thing she would never be able to explain to anyone. "Okay," Frankie said. She killed the machine. The buzz stopped. The quiet rushed in. "That's the top section. Good start. You did fine, you didn't even flinch." "Told you I could take it." Dawn pushed up onto her elbows and looked back over her shoulder, and there was the smile again, the easy real smile that Frankie had liked an hour ago, before. "When can I come back for more?" "Let it heal first." Frankie peeled her gloves off, slow, one finger at a time, so her hands would have something to do. "Couple weeks. Call me. We'll book the next." "I will." Dawn sat up and fixed her top and stood, easy as anything, like a person who had not just set fire to a stranger's whole world without knowing it. Or knowing it. Frankie did not know yet which. She filed that. She was already, without deciding to, filing things. "What do I owe you?" "First session's on the consult. We'll settle up as we go." Frankie went to the front and made herself move normal, the receipt, the card, the bell. "Take care of it. Green soap, twice a day, don't pick it." "Yes ma'am." Dawn paused at the door. She looked back once. For just a second something moved behind the easy face, something watchful, the way a cat watches a thing it has already decided about. "Thank you, Frankie. You really are the best in town. Everybody says so." The bell rang. The door shut. Dawn was gone. Frankie stood alone in the studio with the morning light still warm on the floor and the green soap smell in the air and the metal taste in her mouth, and for one long second nothing in her moved at all. Then her hands started to shake.

My mom died, and the social worker Donna brought me to South Carolina to find the man who was supposedly my dad. I was afraid of him, because my mom had always told me he was a bad man. "What if she's a monster?" my new stepmother Lucy whined. "So she's going to be a mute, depressed kid. What if she tries to hurt my children?" I thought I had found family. I was wrong. At fifteen, my best friend Jay cornered me in the school gymnasium. "Who the heck do you think you are spreading rumors about Tiffany?" he yelled in my face. "You know you're nothing but a princess... I ought to get Double-D to spank your freaking hip." His words burned: "You screwed up good... you were more screwed in the head from watching your bimbo of a mommy die." He sneered: "You will never be good enough to ride my shaft." The entire student body laughed as I walked out. My locker read "Homewreking Bimbo" in bright red marker. I got punched, kicked, hair pulled. My own father and brother believed Jay over me. "You disloyal, ungrateful little bimbo," Jay had spat, and they rushed home to scream the same. I sat in a cooling bathtub with 18 Vicodin pills, ready to end it all. "You get nothing from me ever again," I told Jay at graduation. "You are dead to me, Jason Donovan." I moved out. I locked my heart away. Because when the people sworn to protect you destroy you instead, the only thing left is survival. —— There is a distinct feeling in the air, maybe it's the bitter tang of defeat and sorrow, that hovers around you like a cloud on a rainy day when your life is about to plummet head first into life-altering change. I knew that feeling well. It clung to my eight year old memories like a second skin as I relived the nightmare of seeing my mom clutch her head and drop to the floor out of the blue. She never woke back up. My life changed drastically that day, and as a result I will never forget that feeling as long as I live. It's important to note that as I stood in front of the bleachers in the school's gymnasium, searching for my best friend, Erin, that the same peculiar, life-altering zing was in the air. I almost panicked and left the crowded, noisy space. He-ll, if I had known exactly how much the next few moments would impact the rest of my high school days I would have fled that moment and never looked back. Too bad hindsight is a bit-ch for a reason. I finally locked eyes with Erin whose face crinkled in confusion at the same exact moment a hand landed squarely on my shoulder, holding me in place, so I couldn't go sit with my best friend. I turned my head to see Jay Donovan standing there and I beamed my trademark bubbly-sunshine smile up at him. Jay was my brother's best friend already when I came to live with my dad after my mom died. He also became one of my best friends, and my protector. He was also my secret – or not so secret to some – crush. Not that I would ever tell him that. He never saw me as anything more than a friend and surrogate sister. That is exactly why the deep scowl painting his face in anger had my sunshine smile disappearing from my face in the blink of an eye. "Who the he-ll do you think you are spreading rumors about Tiffany?" He yelled in my face. "You cornered my girl in the bathroom, and tried to get her to break up with me? You thought that sh-it would fly? You know you're nothing but a princess and I'm about to be a patched brother after graduation and you're trying this sh-it? I ought to get Double-D to spank your godda-mn as-s for pulling a stunt like this." His rapid-fire, angry, verbal shots were only confusing me more as embarrassment over the fact that he was screaming at me in front of the entire student body was burning through my face. I had to be a disgusting shade of red by now. I just blinked at him, because what could I say to someone who was berating me, telling me he was going to get my daddy to spank me, and doing it all in front of the whole school. "You fu-ckin' step one foot near Tiff, let one more bad word about her come from those lips, and I will personally see to it that you are banned from the club forever." He shook his head angrily at me before adding the worst insult Id ever heard out of his lips, because he'd never spoken to me in that way before. "You disloyal, ungrateful little bit-ch," his words were spat with pure venom and were strong enough to shatter my rampantly beating heart. A shocked gasp escaped my lips before I could pull it back as I felt white-hot tears spill down my already overheated cheeks with his words. "Your fu-cking alligator tears aren't going to fly with me this time, Princess. You fu-cked up good. I had other bit-ches try to tell me about your bullsh-it before, and I always took your side. Looks like I fu-cked up. Looks like you were more fu-cked in the head from watching your who-re of a mommy die all those years ago than any of us realized." He looked like he was finally going to leave me there with that parting shot that killed a piece of my soul, but no. He wasn't quite done with me. He scoffed out a hate-fueled laugh as he glanced back. "And next time you tell a bit-ch I'm fu-cking that she's just a placeholder for when you're old enough, I want you to remember that you will never be good enough to ride my di-ck. No matter whom I'm with, you can attempt to ruin it, but it won't matter. I'll never be yours." Jay clearly didn't realize that the venomous words he had just spewed at me were the things that would seal that fate more than any actions I had ever taken, because I certainly hadn't been guilty of the ones he accused me of. Actually, I hadn't done a single thing he was accusing me of. I was late to this particular assembly because his bit-ch-as-s girlfriend had cornered me in the bathroom on my way here and informed me that I was going to regret remaining friends with Jay after she'd warned me off twice before. I guess she got her wish, after all. I definitely was regretting ever having been his friend, all the wasted years crushing on him, and the heartache I was going to have to get through after this experience burned everything into my soul. He sneered at me one more time before speaking again. "So, you really have nothing to say? You're just going to stand there and refuse to apologize, or even say a fu-ckin' word?" "Mr. Donovan!" A teacher was finally cluing in and coming our way. "Office, now!" It didn't matter. I took one last look at Jay through my blurry, tear-filled eyes, and I turned on my heels and walked away while an entire gymnasium full of students laughed at me as I went. I caught sight of Tiffany smugly giving me a little princess wave as I walked with my head held high straight out of the gym, out of the school, and then all the way across town until my aching feet carried me home. When I came through the door of the house Lucy was standing in the living room, just hanging up the phone. "Ever, what the he-ll happened today? I just got a call from the school saying you ditched..." she glanced up, took one look at the state I was in, and her attitude about me skipping school fell to the wayside as she came forward and pulled me solidly into her tight embrace. "Oh, sweet girl, what in the world happened to you today?" Lucy and I had gotten off to a rocky start, but it wasn't long before she came around and became the mom to me that I'd been missing since my own had died. Lucy never treated me any differently than her own kids after that initial shock of finding out about me. I was thankful for that in this moment, because I didn't know whom else I would turn to. Jay might not have been a full patch brother of the MC, but he was a prospect already since he'd turned 18 three months ago. My dad had already said that Jay and Toby would get their full-patch rockers after graduation. So, Jay was his brother. I was smart enough to know that meant that Jay would have my dad's ear, and I would not be believed over him. "Baby girl, you have to tell me what happened." And so I did. I blubbered out the entire story to my step-mom and she sat rocking me on the couch the entire time. Once I was finished she hugged me close again. "I don't know what to do, Momma-Luce. I never did those things. I wouldn't. How could he think that? How could he say that about me being fu-cked in the head? He did it in front of the whole school!" I was wailing again as I asked her the questions that were on repeat in my head. Jay thought he'd been angry when he'd been led to believe I betrayed him, but I was heartsick and devastated. I hadn't gotten to the anger portion of my feelings yet. It would come. It just wasn't going to be today. Before Lucy could answer any of my questions the front door was flung open and both my dad and my brother came rushing through, gunning for me. "You know better than to mess with a man's..." the angry tirade on my father's lips was silenced as Lucy stood like the angry momma bear she was, put herself in between where I sat cowering and where my dad stood shouting and she smacked him right in the face. His eyes went wide with shock, and he actually took a step back from his old lady before glancing back and forth between her and me. "Don't you fu-ckin' dare come in here screaming your sh-it in my daughter's face when you know fu-ck all about what just happened to her today." "Oh I know what..." he started to say, and my mother's hand went up, not to slap him again, but to stop him from speaking. "We aren't at the clubhouse. We are at home. You will listen before you pretend to know something simply because a brother – a prospect actually – told you so." Lucy then turned to Toby, who was just as tense with anger as my father. "Where in the he-ll were you today? Why weren't you there to stop this from happening?" "I sure as fu-ck couldn't be in the girl's bathroom where she was running her mouth. What do you want?" My brewed spewed out his angry, venom-laced words in such a disrespectful manner that it was shocking. He must have truly believed what Jay had said to mouth off like that to his own mother. I think that hurt worse than standing in front of the entire school while Jay yelled about how I would never ride his di-ck. "You stupid little sh-it! I raised you better than this. I know I did. That girl has had your protection and love since before I was too messed up to give it to her, and you think this is something she would do? You think she has a conniving bone in her da-mn body? Dig deep, son of mine, and tell me you believe that she has personally set out to destroy every bullsh-it relationship your friend has attempted to start with a girl. Jay runs through girls like water runs through the creek out back, and that's no fault of your sister's. It has more to do with the fact that he can't keep his di-ck in his pants for every new shiny thing that pops up to catch his attention." At that my dad actually chuckled. My brother looked between our mom and me, but he still didn't trust what she was saying. That just stabbed the knife of betrayal a little deeper. "Do you have any idea what your best friend..." she stopped mid question and turned her attention from Toby to my dad before continuing. "What your future club brother, said to her today in front of everyone?" "Yeah, he chewed her out for running her mouth to his girlfriend," Toby told her. "Were you there?" Our mom asked only to have Toby shake his head. "I was in the locker room," he mumbled. "I don't even want to know why," Lucy stated. Dad chuckled again. "Well, let me set the two of you straight, because what he said had that girl so upset she ran all the way home from school." At that news my dad bristled. "Joker's territory is between here and there." My dad sputtered out, angry once again. The Jokers were a start-up MC that was made up of pure thugs. I knew better than to go through there on foot, and especially by myself, but I honestly hadn't been thinking. "Yeah, she was so upset it didn't even occur to her how much danger she was in. Let that sink in while you're busy judging her based on what some jealous high school cu-nt told your brother." Lucy huffed. "I don't care how mad Jay was. I don't care if Ever did say something to try to sabotage his relationship. What he said to her..." Lucy was shaking. Literally shaking with anger. "He told her she was fu-cked in the head from seeing her mom die. He told her she would never ride his di-ck. He screamed it in her face in front of the whole fu-cking school, and here you two are running in to yell at her some more." "What the fu-ck did you just say?" My dad roared then he turned to Toby. "Get that little prick over here now." "No!" I demanded. "It's done. I don't want him here today. I don't ever want to see his face again, actually. I didn't do any of the things he accused me of. Not that either of you will ever believe me over him. He's a brother, and I'm just your daughter and sister. I'm not even supposed to be either of things, as I've been so kindly reminded by the rest of your MC family ever since I was brought here." I laughed humorlessly. "I know I don't matter in this scenario. Jay made that painfully clear earlier when he told me he was going to have you spank me and ban me from the club forever if I ever fu-cked with his life again. Message received by my entire school and me." With that, I moved to go upstairs to my room. "Ever," my dad croaked out to stop me. I didn't bother turning to look back at the people who were supposed to be my family. These were the same people who had once professed how they'd always protect me. Jay hadn't just broken my friendship with him. He'd managed to break my family today, because I would never have faith in the men who were supposed to have my back again. "I can't do this anymore today. Please, just leave me the he-ll alone. Give me that, because if you don't..." I sighed out. "I have nothing. I had nothing. Now, it seems like I have less than that. I have no threats for what will happen other than my heart breaking even more than it already has today, if that's possible. If you have any mercy in you at all, you'll just leave me alone. Please," the last word was a plea even as it came out on a whisper. "Go ahead, but we will be talking tomorrow," my dad informed me. It was obvious from his tone that he still didn't believe me, even if he might have been pissed about the things Jay said in front of an entire assembly of people. I wondered if he would care if Jay had said those things in front of just the club? I wondered if he would have joined in, or laughed with his brothers at my expense. In that moment, I felt like he would have, because he clearly wasn't thinking of me at all. He clearly never knew me at all since he believed this nonsense to begin with. I spent the rest of the night in my room ignoring everyone. Not that there was a lot to ignore from my household. My little sister was clueless about the drama. Neither my father nor my brother bothered to check on me. Whether it was them honoring my wishes or because they didn't care since I was apparently a disloyal bit-ch to their brother in everyone's eyes, I didn't know. Lucy came to try to get me for dinner. I refused. I didn't want to be around anyone else in this house. Besides that, I didn't have an appetite to speak of. Who could really think of eating when their whole world just fell out from beneath them again? The first time, I'd managed to make it eight years before my mom died and my life was turned upside down. Now, it had been almost another eight. Maybe I was doomed to repeat horrible events every eight years? All I knew was that I was done with Jay. Things would never, could never, be the same again; because the trust I'd had in him was broken. The things he said couldn't be unsaid, and I was not the only one to hear them. I had no doubt that I would walk into a brand new fresh he-ll when I got to school tomorrow. So, even if he saw the error of his ways overnight, things would never be the same for me. I was also done with my father and brother. I'd forgive them all eventually, but our relationships would never be what they once were, or what I'd hoped they could be. The fact that they both came in, storming the castle, fire in their eyes, and righteous indignation burning from their pores without a concern for obtaining my side of the situation first... Yeah, that spoke volumes to me. The brother by club was more important than the daughter or sister by blood. Actually, that wasn't entirely true either, because I had zero doubt the same scenario would have gone vastly different if it had been Anna instead of me. She would have received the benefit of their doubt where I didn't deserve it. The fact that they all believed I was a person of such abysmal character without even stopping to question it stamped my soul with a taint that I didn't think I could ever scrub off. The taint they manufactured themselves, even while they apparently all thought I'd carried it with me from birth. I've learned a lot about where I came from since I moved in with my father and his family. My mom apparently cheated on her husband with my dad while at a wild MC party one night. Then she tried to pass me off as her husband's baby. He didn't fall for it, because he had been sterile since before they got married. He'd never bothered to tell her that, and let her think that they just had reproductive issues every time she cried about wanting a baby. In the end, her husband had moved her two states away before finding out she was pregnant, and since my mom was already so far from the man who had actually knocked her up, she chose to keep me a secret so she wouldn't have to share me. She'd wanted a baby for so long, and was already in her mid-40s by the time she got pregnant, that she didn't want to deal with shared custody or another man trying to tell her how to be parent, or possibly trying to take her child from her. I get it. The entire club thinks my mom was an evil, conniving, cheating who-re. They've said as much around me. Only one of them had said it to my face in a mean way, but the rest of them never bothered to filter their opinion when I was around either. Now, I understood why they were always more than a little standoffish with me. I was literally known as "the other princess" meaning my little sister had the official title of the "MC Princess" out of all the kids who had been born to the older brothers. She had been the only girl before I came around. That left me obtaining the title as "the other princess". It had always left me feeling less than, of course that was probably because the words were never said with kindness. I would lift my sister up above myself any day of the week, but knowing that everyone else felt I was beneath her, or thought that I was going to turn out like my mom – or their opinion of her – that was a hurt I could never wrap my head around. I hadn't done anything to earn that sentiment other than being born to the wrong woman. Yet, my own family's reactions today proved they'd been waiting for the proof that my mom's DNA had tainted me just as surely as they thought I had been. Never mind I was half my dad too, and that I'd had Lucy raising me almost as long as my own mom had. They were waiting for me to become my mom, and now Jay's lying-as-s girlfriend, and their willingness to believe the worst of me, painted me as the person they always thought I was.

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